The Walking Dread

I’ve been haunted by dread recently, but unlike ghosts, it isn’t confined to the walls of my home, oh no, it follows me everywhere. No matter where I go, or what I do, I’m constantly reminded of who I could be.

What exactly am I dreading?

Becoming a product of my environment. The escape velocity I need to break past being typical is enormous; and it constantly feels like I’m not pushing myself hard enough. This feeling has been eating away at me far too long, even in my nightmares.

It isn’t all bad though

I like to think that the reason I feel this dread is because I can do it. Maybe this is just how the universe let’s me know that I will do it.

But there is no point appealing to a higher power when you haven’t appealed to yourself first. Let me take the responsibility of changing my life, and let me take it seriously.

Perhaps then, dread won’t have a reason to exist

-Pardan